lately I tend to run into all kinds of distractions whenever I attempt to combine serious blogging thoughts with actually being in front of the computer to type them...

I can summon amazing amounts of wittiness and insight when I am driving or observing some of the chaos patterns inherent in technical based work enviornment... or even getting real with one on one conversations.

But when I try to create a space where I can develop and harness the emotions and creativity I fall into some of the traps I created for myself. I run afoul of my own defense mechanisms that are meant to keep out the scary dark things.

My focus will shift without me realizing it and suddenly I'm three tracks away from where I started.

Well I finally started one of my important tracks... It's been kicking around for awhile.

A number of people already understand the context and what suprises me is that I haven't felt obligated to define the context more tightly. That may happen in the fullness of things and those who think they know may have a mysterious smile or two.

But I truly don't know what the destination is.

This one is all about the journey.